Tuesday, March 08, 2005
_sumtink happie_ finally,. sumtink great or rather nice happen tuh mi todae,. lolz,. i'm so happie even if he didn't meant it,. heez,. so swit of him aniwae,. he finished his work already,. therefore he took his stuffs and went out of tha classrm,. i tot he was goin hm,. so said bye,. nort long ltr,. he came back,. eve asked:" cum back for wad,.?" he repiled:" wait for kim larz,.!" muhahahahazZ.... so happie,. i might be flyin dan,. lolz,. overjoyed,. my response was :" yahz larz yahz larz"( nort in an attitude tone) dan i luff,. hahaz,. dan he really waited lehz,. bud guess he's waitin for claron bahz,. aniwae,. i'm so happie,. really carn describe how i really feel,. bud i might be thinkin tuU much into it le larz,. bud nvm,. guess its fine,. he oso dunno wad,. hahaz,. dan walked tuh canteen together,. he stand beside mi,. dan i was so scared,. scared dat shuyi see le will jealous,. bud luckily she nort in canteen,. yupz,.
shuyi wrote mi a letter,. sayin she was sorrie and wadever larz,. i dunno why,. bud i carn bring myself tuh believe her at all,. guess it's becoz tha pain she inflicted on mi was tuu deep,. she shld be sorrie bud nort tuh mi,. bud tuh herself,. she's hurtin herself double by hurtin mi,. i really carn bring myself tuh forgif her now,. guess i'm juz tuu petty,. i'm nort sumone wif a big heart,. if i'm one dan i shld haf forgiven her by now,. bud why i've nort,.? i really dunno,. i'm readin tis book on forgiveness,. it has helped mi look at tinkz in totally different ways,. i've change,. in terms of thinking i guess,.
well,. bout tha 13 wanders,. i really feel so disappointed wif certain ppl,. haiz,. we even tot of (doin wad dey did tuh us back tuh em')=revenge,. bud
REVENGE WOULD MERELY TAKE US DEEPER IN OUR PAIN,. we would haf tuh bear tha additional burden of having acted out of character,. we'd oso haf tuh live wif tha knowledge and gulit that,. under pressure,. we respond as badly as dose who hurt us,. SCORES DO MORT GET EVENED BY RETALIATION,. THEY DOUBLE,.
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