Friday, April 22, 2005
enj0yabLe.daE ]]x went tuh t0wn wif jas ting rain ice wei cai sean anad and jovey.
]]x super fun. dan went tuh take piCs.
]]x farnie sia. 1st tym take wif sean and anad lohz. weird ryte. bud it was real fun.
]]x dat stupid anad realli joker lohz.
]]x sean and anad stood behind dan anad was hit by tha so called background. lolx.
]]x luff till i wanna die.
]]x dan we took a real farnie shot. lookin at all directions.
]]x went hm nort long after dat. coz jas has tuh go hm le. her mum lohz.
]]x aniwae. had a real fun dae.
]]x bud n0tice ice nort happie lidat lehz. melbe she's bored.
]]x i realli miss euu. bud euu dunno de larz.
]]x jo told mii claron dey all noe dat i lyk him lohz. wth.
]]x dunno how dey noe de.? if i find out who tell em de dat pers0n sure die.
]]x ilurfehimaload
]]x brought a specs. lurfe it tuh tha core. hahaz.
[[+]] relati0nships.haF.nvR.bEen.muii.beef [[-]]
--ilurfeeuuandiinoeeuudunatall--
@1:28 AM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
sad.!? .i'm realli sad.
.why do frenz blame mii when dey dunno wads goin on.?
.i'm under so much pressure.
.i'm gonna break dwn sooner or ltr.
.jas saes dat wo li ta men heng yuan heng yuan le.
.bud she doen't noe tha reason. so i dun blame her.
.bud ain't we frens for yrs.?
.whr's tha trust.?
.i realli dunno le.
.ytd at eunice's bbq.
.first tym, dey went tuh buy tiinks w/o mii.
.second tym, dey went tuh take a stroll w/o mii.
.third tym, dey went tuh buy hong yu's cake w/o mii.
.fourth tym, dey send jas hm w/o mii tuu.
.if euu treat dat sunone as ur fren.
.would euu do dat.?
.guess euu wun.
.forget it.
utterly disapp0inted
@3:07 AM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
melbe i'm driftin. i dunno. _+ i carn do anitink if we're realli driftin apart.
_+ i dun wan dat tuh happen euu noe.
_+ certain tiinkz juz ain't in my control.
_+ soo manii tiinkz haf happen at hm in my life.
_+ dat i juz dun wanna bring it up.
_+ i juz want tuh lead a happie life.
_+ slowly healing inside on my own.
_+ bud ppl juz misunderstand mii w/o knowing wads happenin tuh mii.
_+ dun judge mii tuu soon.
_+ euu noe i lurfe all of euu.
_+ i've nvr tot of leaving.
_+ ish tha trust between us so vulnerable.?
_+ so manii feelins dat i carn express.
_+ problems everiwhr.
_+ my parents.
_+ my schwk.
_+ lurfe.
_+ tha last tiink i expected tuh haf problems wif ish frenship.
_+ bud i'm wrong.
_+ disapp0inted.
_+ sad.
euu noe i lurfe euu all dunn euu?
@12:50 AM
Friday, April 15, 2005
__x wads tha matter wif mii x__ _x i'm disappointed wif myself
_x i dunno wad i'm gonna do animre
_x i'm juz useless
_x he look at my cell and guess he saw wad he's nort suppose tuh see
_x felt so embarrassed
_x juz wanna concentrate on my studies
_x bud my mind juz wander off
_x wad am i doin?
_x haix. i still lurfe him no doubt
_x bud dats nort i wan
_x its hard
_x its pain
_x nth i can do bout it
_x dats tha worse part
____x h69.!n.6ue!x.om x___]]x
+` tearsofdisapp0intment `+
@2:00 AM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
+.+ daKiindaLurfeiiAlwaysWanted +.+ we're sitting on tha cold shore combing tha sand ard us looking for sea glass,. it's windy and tha cool mist cuming off tha waves feels cold and charming,. we're bundled up in all our layers and he gently touches my face and kiisses my lips,. his blue-green eyes stare deep intuh mine and i feel him looking straight intuh my heart,.
tha brilliant rays of purple,. gold and turquoise start tuh fade as tha sun finishes setting,. we stand up,. wipe tha sand off our pants and start walking tuh tha parking lot,. i take a deep breath and smell tha salt and seaweed crawling in with tha tide,.
on our walk hm,. he holds my hand and we luff and tok bout nth of real significance,. we walk slowly tuh savor tha moment,. tuh savor tha tym we haf together,. the tree seem tuh make a tunnel,. surrounding us and isolating us in our own lil world,.when we get back tuh my hse,. we take tha sea glass and put it in my jar,. " it's almost halfway filled," he remarks,. as i look at tha tiny pieces filling tha jar,. there muz be at least a hundred pieces in there,. all of em' different shapes and different colours,. i suppose dat if i counted em',. dere would be juz as mani as tha days we haf spent together,. tha nytez we haf comforted each other on tha phone,.
each piece of glass ish a different colour,. i decided dat dey represent tha ordinary days filled wif insight and lurfe,. dey are tha most frequent ones,. tha everiday ones,. i notice dat i put in a green one today,. it ish a day lyk today dat we shared together dat tha green ones represent,. tha green ones frosted wif white specks represent tha days in which one of us was upset and confided in tha other,. although dere are only a few,. dere are sum and dey're big,. i tink dose are tha ones dat help tha relationship grow tha most,. tha white pieces are tha biggest and tha shiniest,. dey reflect tha tym one of us accomplished sumtink or was realli happie bout sumtink,. one might represent him winning his car,. another might be when i made tha team and yet dere are so mani i carn rmb wad each one represents,. dere are so few dark-brown ones,. dose haf tha sharpest edges ans cut ur fingertips when eu touch em',. dey coz tears and hurt,. dey're tha ex-galfrenz,. tha nort-tuu-long-ago crushes,. tha jealousy,. tha fights,. dey're tha painful parts of our relationship dat will will nvr go away,. bud haf becum smoother over tym,.
dere ish one brilliant bluish-purple piece of glass,. it ish veri small and i noe exactly wad it represents,. it ish tha first tym he said dose three words dat before dat night were juz tossed ard and used carelessly by other guys,. it represents tha tym when he looked deep intuh my eyes,. brushed back my hair and told mi he loved mi,.all of tha pieces of sea glass are strong,. no matter how hard eu try (and ppl haf tried),. dey wun break,. dey may get smoother,. maybe a lil' smaller bud so do all memories,. dey are strong amd will always br dere and will nvr be lost,. dan dere's a big rock,. a big pink rock in tha shape of a heart,. down at tha bottom,. its shape represents exactly wad it ish,. it's in our hearts,. wif all tha sea glass and memories and gd tums tuh cum piled on top,. our small pink hearts,. learning bout each other and ourselves,. piling lil' green days on top of big white ones,. avoiding tha sharp brown ones and trying tuh find another blue one,. it's our hearts,. tha ones dat haf spent over two years piling memories on top,. good and bad,. tuh make two different, wonderful ppl,. tha glass jar will nvr break,. tha jar ish our bodies dat protect our hearts and memories,. lyk tha sea glass,. it ish strong and even if one of us goes away,. it will still be dere wif all tha memories left behind,.
@9:02 PM
tuuh.mmy.priince.charrmiing Dear boy,
i do nort noe who eu are or whr or when we'll mit bud i do hope it ish soon,. i pray dat when we mit and fall in lurfe,. eu'll lurfe mi,. for mi,. and nort hope for sumone thinner or prettier,. i hope eu wun compare mi tuh gals who may haf brighter smiles,. i hope dat eu'll make mi luff,. take care of mi if i get sick and be trustworthy,.
i hope eu'll rmb dat i perfer daisies tuh roses and dat my favorite colour changes wif my mood,. pls noe dat i might be tuu shy tuh kiss eu first bud pls dun be afraid tuh kiss mi,. i wun slap eu or push eu away,. i'm sure ur kiisses will be perfect,.
pls noe dat i'll constantly act strong and in control bud inside i am actualli lost and confused. ( juz dun tell my frenz),. pls dun worry if i hurt myself,. instead be dere tuh mend my wounds wif kiisses,. understand dat lurfing each other means being together bud nort all tha tym,. we shld nvr bail on our frenz,. also understand dat i may at tyms act jealous and overly protective bud onli becoz i haf insecurities nort becoz eu're doin sumtink wrong,. when we go on a date,. pls dun stress bout whr tuh take mi,. wads important ish dat i'll be wif eu,. if i cry,. pls noe dat it isn't becoz of eu,. juz hold mi close and i'll heal quickly,. And if it ish becoz of eu,. i'll heal juz tha same,.
if i haf a bad dae,. i hope eu will shower mi wif confidence and smiles and if we fall out of lurfe wif one another,. pls dun hate mi,. and if i cry infront of eu,. pls dun luff at mi,. pls noe dat i am sensitive,. i hope eu dun tink dat i'm askin a lil tuu much of eu,. i hope eu understand dat i'm a lil' nervous and veri scare tuh fall in lurfe agn,. i wish i could tell eu how or when we'll mit and if we'll be in lurfe foreva,.
everi relationship is a new game of cards and..........(sigh)............ i've nvr been good at cards,. bud i'll try my best tuh be kind and lurfe eu dearly for all dat eu are,. w/o expecting tuu much from eu,. thank eu for listening,. tis ish all dat i ask,.
Yours always,
/+ kimberly
\+ kimbearbear
/+ iif everiidream ii hafiish oof euu ii would wann tuuh slpp foorever +\
@1:27 AM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
/+ memories.of.him +\ yerpx,. it's juz gonna be memories of him le,. i still miss him sumtyms bud guess its tym tuh juz forget him le,. wass tha point of waitin so long for nth rytez,.? dun wanna end up a loser,. yerpx,. jovey sae yanhan's hp gort aload of tis gal's msg,. bud dunno who ish dat gal,. cuz he nvr put name,. dan tha content lyk stead,. so dat makes him unavailable liaoz,. hahaz,. forget him ish tha best lohz,. might be sad bud use tuh it le,. so mani tyms dere's rumours bout him hafin stead and always left mi heart-broken,. now i ask myself wass tha point,.? lykin him ish makin mi feel stupid,. wadever it ish i'll nvr lurfe agn,. cuz lurfe onli brings pain and heartaches,.
so tuh all my frenz,. dun mention him tuh mi le okie,. if eu all wanna mi tuh forget him faster dan dun mention him cuz i'll be seein him everidae in klass and dat makes it super hard for mi tuh forget him,. dun make it even harder for mi,.
/+` s0obso0b.he.haas.go0rt.herr `+
\+` tearsofdisapp0intment `+
@3:40 PM
