Destined to reign.

Monday, October 31, 2005

thesufferings

THE SUFFERINGS.
KATRINA CATASTROPHE.
HOW CAN WE HELP.?

Hurricane Katrina hit the Gulf Coast.
A natural disaster leaving everyone in shock. A day later the levees that protected the crescent city of New Orleans from the water that surrounds it on three sides collapsed, and the city began to flood.
Watching this on TV, the water was rising in time with the chaos, the question marks accumulating as the massive scale of these events turned catastrophic. I, like everyone, was trying to comprehend the situation, and i felt the need to do something, but i cant.

It pains my heart every time i turn on the TV and see the suffering and devastation that the people on the Gulf Coast are going through, it all seems just beyond belief that something like this is happening and in America nonetheless. i dun think anyone who's not experiencing it can feel how deep their pain goes.

the people there need practical ways to move forward. so many are waiting to be told what to do, they NEED direction. yearning to put a foot forward yet unsure of where to step. Looking for places to place blame is not constructive right now, it will divide. Yes, later, accountability should be scored, but right now it only serves to digress the spirit and will from self-reliance, from self-respect, and self-significance, instead of towards a future and livelihood, individually, as a nation, and as a people.

kiims`

@5:07 PM

Saturday, October 29, 2005

lyfe-

LYFE'S AMBIGUOS.!?

waiting is painful.
forgetting is painful.
but not knowing what to do is the worst of them all.

am i going to wait forever.?
or am i going to move on.?
no matter how long i hold on.
there's nth i can do.

i cant do anything for him.
nor can i do anything with him.
there's nth between me & him.
so just forget it.
not lyk he cares.
i know it hurts but lyfe's lyk that.

kiims`

@5:07 PM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

imma PIG.

IMMA PIG!!!!

omg. im sucha pig. hahas. ytd i slept at ard 5pm and i promised myself to wake up at 7:30pm BUT i only woke up at 10:54am this morning. lols. so imma pig man. lols. i really dunno how i manage to do so. my dad is funny larr. this morning he came and say :"hey, wake up." my normal reaction is :"go away larr. i wanna slp." then he said:" okie. carry on another 8 more hrs to 24 hrs. its a little difficult but you can do it. jia you.!" lols. how funny can he get right. omg. in the end i carry on slping till 1o:54am lohs. hahas. i wasted so many hours slping. OmG.!! i tink i dun wanna slp tonyte already becos im so energetic now. hahas. =pPp i had my break now its tym to study.

duckie's sick man. her voice, omg. so sexy man. hahas. lols. stay this way larr, you'll sound nicer. hees. anyway, ytd went for a lil exercise. NETBALL. imagine after sooo0ooooo0oo long, i touched netball agn. hahas. the feeling was nice, being able to sweat it out once agn. but the game we had wasnt nice, a lil bored. so hoping for a real match. but it aint gonna happen. hahas. nvm, i can carry on my netball in poly. nvr am i giving up netball. the passion is foreva dere. jus that now i hafta concentrate on my studies alright. <3

kiims` i so miss my shuai ge. hahas. kisses ;;

@1:05 PM

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

so touched.//

ohhs. my graduation ceremony was funny,touching and lots of other emotions which i cant really describe. i love 4a's video, it was incredibily funny. watching it makes me think bout the crazy stuffs we did too. omg. im sucha cry baby. lols. i truly treasure those mem0ries and fun times we all had tgt. btw, she msg me. sumtink lyk a greeting msg, wishing me good luck in my Os. i dunno if she really meant it but i can say im quite touched though i jus said a thank you. hahas. AND i really hoped she meant it.

im so happie becos i find myself getting out of this bottomless pit. omg. im real happie though most of my friends didnt want to believe me. I REALLY DOESNT LYK HIM ANYMORE. i find myself thinking of my shuai ge and not him. lols. though he'll be a mem0ry. i dun lyk him anymore bud i did not forget totally, its jus dat i no longer hope for anything. maybe we're jus meant to be friends afterall cos i see no point anymore. wad's the point right.? i've waited long enough and dumb enough. i shld have seen the signs long ago. why did i take so long to be smart.? ahas. btw, alflirt you watch out.!!!! hahaas. you embarrased me today. im not gonna forget it huhhs. lols. i said:"goodbye,fred.!" he said:" bye ah kim.!" and i walked off. then he shouted:" why didnt you say goodbye to yanhan?" omg. you hell of an asshole and you didnt say it softly.! eu shouted.!!! arrg. i feel lyk digging a hole on the spot and hide in it. you gonna pay. lols. imnot gonna say goodbye to you anymore. hmph. =pPp

fishy and duckie is scare of my sister. lols. i find it so funny becos my sis aint fierce. it's jus dat her face looked a lil' fierce maybe not a lil' but a lil' more than a lil'. lols. anyway, they were supposed to study overnight at my place. in the end they didnt becos im sis said off the lights. lols. im so sorry my sis scared ya'all. hees. eu're all welcum anytym. hahas.=)

kiims.// love myself & my shuai ge. hahas.=pPp

the tears have dried, the wreaths have wilted but the pain is still fresh.

@2:24 PM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

im graduating soon.!!!

IM FRIGGING GRADUATING SOON.!!!!

omg. i jus carn imagine im graduating in a few weeks tym. omg omg omg.! bud i dun wanna graduate eu noe. i will definitely miss all my pals and galfriends. esp 13 wonders. i feel lyk crying jus toking bout tis. how i wish i could turn back tym. i miss all the birthday parties besties spent wif mie. all the special moments, all the tym spent tgt, all the crazy stuffs we did tgt, all the laughter,joy & sorrows we share. all the letters we wrote to each other. so much memories so much everything. how can i bear.? i'll nvr forget all these memories so dear to my heart.

In class, all my classmates though sum are not study pals bud dey definitely are playmates. fun and stuffs. the whole 2 years we're tgt, how we supported each other, how we made miss kang so angry dat she quit teaching us.(we did it as a class) lols. i so missing the times already. AND i miss mr ang, he is one hell of a cute teacher. how he makes us luff by his funny punishment. "boy, boy, see dat corner dere? go squeeze in there." how cute can he get. rmb once he punished faisal for doing nth. lols. he asked faisal to get out of class then faisal said:'' why.? i oso nvr do anything." guess wad's cher response.? lols. he said:" dat's the problem, eu are not doing anything." lols. he's so damn funny and i miss him sooooooooooooo much.

FARHANA.!!!! my class palymate. lols I'LL MISS EU LYK HELL.!!!!! forget mie not okies. cos i'll always rmb eu.! the times we spent in class are always enjoyable and eu were always so caring towards mie. i hope i was too. love eu so much, eu've left incredible mem0ries in my heart. i will miss ur laughter though its frightening sometimes. hahas. i'll miss ur cute face. i'll miss ur hilarious stories and ur real true character. ILU. <3

13wonders--

o1-huiping: my ever-lasting da-jie. always so cheerful and so mature. i really miss eu. eu cannot forget mie becos when i wanna go shopping i'll drag eu along no matter wad & once my netball partnerr too. i love eu loads. hope to see eu in twss nxt yr alright. we can have fun after my Os.

o2-ginny: my long time best friend. knew her since pri sch. rmb the times we played netball lyk no body's business during pri sch days. i so miss the times. we screaming on court. its so much fun and even when we went on to sec sch we're still in one team. hahas. PARTNERS FOR LYFE. i really miss eu. eu mus take real lots of care alright cos i dun see eu much now and carn take care of eu. i dunno when eu're sick or unhappy. so i carn make liang cha for eu lyk i made for the rest, carn console eu, carn lend eu my shoulder. eu have to keep me inform okies. im missing eu everyday really. my trusted friend- take care and i love eu. <3

o3- mie: i love myself now. hahas. kimberly eu mus not be so blur okies. everyone will luff at eu. and eu've already forgotten him alright. no more 694 or wadsoever. eu can live w/o him. can can can. dun say eu carn. eu can. and eu mus keep on trying. importantly, CONCENTRATE ON UR STUDIES.! its jus a few weeks more.

o4- yvonne: my dearie. love love love. hees. eu mus study hard okies. after Os we're working tgt yea. hahas. rmb all the times we spent consoling each other and the letters we wrote to each other. i love eu too much to be describe. all ur advises all ur support i thank eu for em'. dey've helped me thru all my hard times. im so grateful to have eu as my dearie.

o5-fishy: ahas. eu fat ass though we aint real close but we're in the same class for one yr and in the same wonderful group for 4 yrs alright. mug hard and dun forget to miss mie. lols. eu're much miss by me noe dat. hees. take care lots too. eu're one cuttie. love lots.

o6-eunice: my beloved galfriend. i miss eu so much and im sure i'll see eu in sch nxt yr. carry on working hard. rmb i'll always be supporting eu. we're friends for once and will always be okies. i miss the times we played tgt on court and all the trgs we spent having fun tgt. i reaalllly miss dose days. love eu lyk hell and thanks eu for all the advices.<3

o7- rainny: my acompany&bestie. almost 365 days we go to sch and go home after sch tgt. all the toking all the stuffs i'll nvr forget. wad bout eu.? hope eu dun forget me too. i love eu so much. we share ups and down dun we. hahas. love ur cute-ness. lols. i'll nvr forget eu and eu mus forget me not alright. eu mus accompany me no matter wad. i dun care. hahas. lols. =pPp we shall go shopping after the Os.!!! i carn wait. love lots muacks. thanks for standing up for me & brining me thru my hard times.thanks for supporting my decision no matter wad de are. im sorry for not doing so too. however i still love eu lots.

o8- ting: MY LAO GONG. abandon me already. hahas. bud i still love eu as much. rmb the times spent toking bout stuffs close to our heart. eu mus work hard okies. rmb i'll always be behind eu supporting eu whrever eu go. and i still rmb my promise to eu. i promise i'll make up for the tym lost. we'll go shopping. jus the 2 of us. cos dat's wad i promised eu. i'll buy eu stuffs. i promised. thx for the times i needed eu and eu were dere. love lots4.

o9- duckie: my daug larr. lols. always making me luff no matter wad. her hilarious face. dat famous "bird" face. lols. i so love her. so adorable so cute. she's so good tome and how can i bear to make her sad right. shu fen- i do care for eu alright dat test aint real. trust me.!! i really do. ur birthday present i still rmb. jus wait for a surprise after the Os. im so sooorrrie dat eu haf to wait for so long cos i seriously wana concentrate on my studies. eu're important in my lyfe. seriously, i love eu lots larr. hahas. mus nvr forget mie. cos i'll nvr ever forget a friend lyk eu. thanks for all the tym spent ad my hse. playing tgt and toking so much. THANKS.!!!

10- jassy: my bestest pal. lols. we have been friends for so long. our friendship aint for nth. i hope i was dere for eu all these yrs becos eu were dere for me when i needed eu. and eu're always helping me when i get bullied. i so love eu for ur character. rmb during sec 2, we're always toking in miss leow lessons. hahas. we were always toking. and i dunno how we could tok so much. omg. i miss dose days. wad bout eu.? hahas. thank eu for all the things eu haf done for me. thank eu for so many things. shall we go shopping after the Os. im looking forward for that day. love eu love eu lots lots. <3

11- xiaoxue: my lover. hahas. she's one cuttie too. i love eu since the day i saw eu. haha. wahahahas. lols. i really miss eu lots. eu are so lovable eu noe. hhaas. study hard okies. im so worried for eu. love me lots. hahas. i love eu lots and lots. muacks. my netball best partner. hees. i miss dose days we spent on court and i know im fierce on court. so sorrie for scaring eu. lols. thank eu for supporting mie on court huhs. lols. eu're my best partner.

12- shimin: hey gal. eu aint very close but i still love eu. lols. we're classmate once too. rmb. lols. mug hard yea. we had some fun times tgt too. will miss eu after we graduate too. take care.

13- eve: my daug too. lols. so love eu. always entertaining me. lols. im sorrie sometimes i dun entertain eu. im so sorrie. hahas. i was once ur god too right. lols. hahahhahas. rmb. all the times we had in class all the fun. i'll nvr forget. i'll miss eu. though eu take POA while itake DNT. i hope we could meet in the same poly agn. maybe we'll be classmate agn. hahas. dat would be fun then. i love eu. take care and mug hard.
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jovey- love eu too. mus take care okies. and im happie for eu. happie dat eu're free now. mus miss me lots alright. i miss eu. <3 thank eu for always askin me to provide eu wif sweets huhhs.lols. but also thank eu for buyin sweets for me once in the blue moon.

claron- thanks for all ur effort in helping me during dnt lessons. miss dose times we had fun in the workshop. and thanks for scaring me wif ur friggin ghost story. lols. and thanks for teaching me ur pet phrase: qi guai. lols. wahahas. will miss eu after Os. take care okies. i carn really "control" eu anymore. hahas. so sad.

fred- thanks for filling my lyfe wif laughter and joy. all ur lame jokes and lame stuffs. i really love em' though sometimes i dun entertain eu. hahas. eu mus miss me cos im ur beloved chef rmb. hahas. i made breakfast for eu quite often okies. and eu nvr pay me. hahas. okies larr. i miss eu lots too. love.

mean- thanks for being my friend. love eu too. will miss eu loads. rmb the times we tok on the phone for long periods of tym. i so miss dose days. i will miss ur drawings too.<3

yanhan- i love eu once. bud not anymore. but anyway, thanks for letting me love eu and thanks for my suffering. thanks for all the missings and stuffs. we haf been classmates for 3 yrs. thanks for helping me some times. <3

END OF MY LIST. HOPE I DIN FORGET ANYONE. =)

@4:41 PM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

if im not in love with eu.//

if im not in love wif eu.//

If I’m not in love with eu. wad is this im going thru 2niite.?
and if my heart is lying then wad shld i believe in.?
why do i go crazy every time i tink bout eu.? why.!!
why else do i want eu lyk i do, if im not in love with eu.
and if i dunnit ur touch. why do i miss eu so much 2niite
if it’s just infatuation then why is my heart aching.!
to hold eu foreva is wad i wish for.
if im not in love with eu then why in every fantasy do i feel ur arms ambracing me
lovers lost in swit desire.
someone help explain this feeling.

do eu noe wad's it lyk to noe wad eu dun wanna noe.???!!!

kiims`

@6:17 PM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

dun wanna noe;;

I REALLY DUN WANNA NOE ANYTHING.!!!!

IM SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD.!!!!!

Im realli brokenupinside.
i got to noe sumtink i should have not know. i dunno why bud istill feel so sad. hais. pls pls dun tell mie animre stuffs bout him. i jus dun wanna noe.

kiims`

@10:53 PM

so true.>>

PERSONALITY TEST-its so true.!!!

You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. But your relationships with your friends are highly intensive, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you need in order to feel good. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time; you rarely become bored.
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its so true alright. i carn believe it. tells everything. hahas.

kiims`

@3:25 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

its complicated ;;

its realli complicated;;

sighs. why are so many things happening ard here.? i jus carn stand all these bullshit. man.!!! dey're bad rweal bad. how can they treat sumone lyk dat.? they sux big tym. jus carn stand it anymore. why are all these back stabbing happening agn.? seriously wad's the matter wif em'.? i jus dun get it.!! wad's the point.? does it realli matter. i jus hate it this way. importantly i realised that sum ppl jus aint wad i tot they're. they seriously aint.

why is it dat no one believes mie when i say i dun lyk him animre.? well, i dun believe myself to0. its all fake its all lies. jus tryna lie to myself so i'll feel better.? i realli dunno alrite. how can i forget after so long.? how can i.? i realli carn. seriously i might not forget him for the rest of my lyfe. bud who cares rite. sighs. okies enuff about him now. does BEST friends truly exist.? why is it dat relatioships and friendships jus start as fast as it ends.? why is this so.? i realli carn comprehen this eu noe. im bloody dissapointed''''

kiims`

@8:13 AM