Destined to reign.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Rip off the wings of a butterfly.

Bbq was G-G-Great!
I played the swing like after God knows how many billion years.
And I refused to let Waynne play.
Yes, I know, I'm fighting with a six year old over a swing, cannot is it?
So I refused to let him, and Waynne went to emo-one-corner.
Oh, fine lo, I had to give in.

asdhfadlshfal;

I really wanted to play the swing, you know.
Sigh, just because he's six, and when he emo-one-corner, he gets to play.
And just because I'm eighteen, when I emo-one-corner, I have to get my fat arse off the swing, and nobody gives a shit about me.
Where is the love?
Boohoo, I wanted to play the swing eh.
Kids these days, are just so selfish, like Sherry but Waynne's soo much more adorable than Sherry.
Pfft, so I went to play scooter.
Like, bloody hell, what generation already still play scooter?
But when kids don't let you play the swing, you just got to play the damn kick-scooter, which is apparently half your fugly size.
Just imagine, back then I could even do the supposed "stunts" on it, and if I attempt to do them now, I'll break my fragile old bones or even break the god damn scooter.
Sigh. And I still love playing the swing, makes me feel ... I don't know, as if nothing is tying me down.

Waynne's emo-one-corner!

Waynne and his birthday cake! soooo adorableee.

I â™¥ LYNETTE!

Went crazy with cousins, so many people, like my ahgong's brothers and sisters came as well, and there were like, three generations of people all in the bbq pit and in the house.
Imagine the noise!
Played mj again with uncle kelly, uncle mike and aunt clara.
Uncle kelly was guarding me like fuck.
But I still won alil, aunt clara won the most, like more than 300 bucks. How LUCKY!
I want that kindda luck as well.
Stayed over at aunt clara's crib.
Slept in one room with valerie, waynne, sherry and glenn.
Chit-chatted with glenn and valerie till 2-3am and all fell asleep.
I seriously miss sleep-overs with cousins!

Valerie and I â™¥

Yesterday Valerie came over to bake at my crib and we made choc mousse cake.
I think val is a very sensible girl and I would be so bloody happy to have her as a daug.
She was so happy that day because she says her 2 bros would never bake, paint nails and read/search recipes together with her.
She went back with the choc cake happily that day (;
Then I went to duckie's crib for steamboat.
Jas, ahlin, fishy and I reached the earliest so we played one round of mj while waiting for the rest to arrive.

MJ craze(;

Duckie's dad kept taking photos of us while we were eating and ahlin's the greedy pig. hahahaha.
After dinner, played bj and I won around 16bucks(;
Then ahlin left first, followed by jas and vone then ginny and xiaoxue.
So eunice, orhping, fishy and I played mj till 230am.
And halfway through, dad called me to question me about sherry's PE shorts. WTF!
It's her fucking shorts and if it's that fucking important, she could jolly well wash it hersef right?!
Fucking annoying!
So I hurry finish the one round of mj and went home.
In the end, she was already asleep and I didn't bring my crib's key so I called her like a million times.
She didn't even responded!
So I went back to duckie's crib cause my area wasn't all safe at night.
And continued playing mj till 5am and fishy, orhping and eunice acc me back home.
Thanks girls!
ps: please stop mentioning that frightening old ah ma that I always bumped into at my stairs.
The rest of today was spent sleeping.

Don't you just hate it when people keeps calling you 'emo' when all you did was speak your thoughts and emotions?
Since speaking your own thoughts and emotions meant being called 'emo' a few hundred times by others, it's really no wonder why people don't open up, and have a thousand masks to hide behind until they don't know who they really are anymore.
Sometimes, you just don't know who the fuck to trust anymore.
Sometimes we ask ourselves, "What's the point?" and sometimes, I'm just terrible at this whole "living" thing.
If you aren't even a little bit depressed, then you must not be paying attention to what's going on around you.
Will be meeting jon for coffee tomorrow.
Like, I know, finally.
I think there should be at least five times whereby he said, " ... coffee?" and I said I can't because I was too busy.
Since, I'm free tmr and new year, fine, I'll go.
Better set reminder else I'll forget and then that poor boy will sit at Starbucks and rot and curse me in five gazillion hokkein bad words till I burn in hell, or something.
Bloody shit asdfhdasfdas; I've a fucking outbreak.
Must be the period, must be ...
& Cheebees, don't tell me to drink more water, not like that would help either.

go figure

Then again,
I've heard so much about you.
How can it be after so long you're still living in your own world?
It's so hard to believe you are still the pack of lies you have always been.
It's clear to see that friendship has never been something you could manage.
How utterly pathetic.
My sympathy goes out to you.
After all this time , isn't it conspicuous enough for you to see that people has turned away from you.
Perhaps you only have yourself to blame.
You make a mess outta everything and you expect people to clean up after you.
You might never be reading this I know .
But I somehow wish you might stumble upon it and feel guilty about yourself.
feel VERY guilty in fact.
And you know you're so guilty it's disgusting.
I do pity you, you know?
For all these stuffs you'd made up about yourself.
And you turned out to be what others say; you're not who I thought you were. Why?

Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!

@11:53 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

where have I been?

Friends..

It's not that they come and go.
It's just the interruptions in the drifting gaps that never gets mended,thus adding on to the sores and brusies.
Sometimes,
It's just the very gradual touch that you lose grip of in the frienship.
Perhaps some just choose to be happier off elsewhere, hence, never looking back to see what was left behind.
Still very much in self-denial.
It feeds no apathy.
Inevitably, I can still never quite comprehend.

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you, daddy.
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier.
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange.
But I can't watch you walk away, can't I?

carved my name into his leather seats.

@7:08 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

10cents in my pocket but a heart full of love.

The first day of chinese new year was pure fun.

Sisters for life(;

Look at her stupid mouth! she just wouldn't listen to me and stop doing that la.

To hell with cross-dressing, I got scolded for it.
And mom seriously banned me from leaving my crib with my straight cut jeans on, man.

asfdajlgda;

Anyway, apart from the dressing thing, I really had alot of fun on the first day of chinese new year(;
Headed to temple first then to grannie's crib(dad's side) then to ah ma's crib(mom's side).
Isn't really close to the relatives on dad's side so we stayed for only a few hours then headed to ah ma's crib.
Finally got to eat ah ma's cooking which is the best in my opinion. HAHA!
Then aunt suzane, aunt clara and uncle kelly came with their family.
I miss lynette cuzzy so much la.
We were the closest cousin ever.
I still rmb going to jiang with her and keith boy and swimming lessons, drawing lessons, kindergarden and we all were looked after by ah ma when we were so bloody young and kiddy.
Those were the childhood days and we would always gang up to bully our neighbour! hahahahs.
Even sneaked out of ah ma's crib to play in the playground while ah ma was cooking dinner, we were always doing things together.
And up till now, we still update each other about our life and secrets.
Lynn is just like my sister la.

You can't see our eyes when we smile xD

We always do the retard-est thing together.
Ryan and wayne are the cutest thing on earth la, I mean the cutest lil cuzzies.
Imagine a 6-year-old and 7-year-old talking to each other.
Zomg, simply adorable la.

Ryan: Why you keep frowning?
Wayne: I'm sick lor.
Ryan: SICK?! Where? fever?*touches wayne's head
Wayne: no.
Ryan: stomach pain?*touches wayne's stomach
Wayne: no, running nose, must eat that black black medicine, so smelly. * pinches his nose
Ryan: you must eat all finish okay, my mother say if small kids don't eat finish their medicine then ah pu neh neh will catch them away.
Wayne: I know, why my mother also know that? she told me that also.
Ryan: maybe my mother tell your mother one.

LOL!
I was laughing when I heard their convo, such hilarious kiddos man.
I swear they seriously make me laugh so bad.
I could see lynn and me in them alrd.
Oh, then uncle kelly opened the mj table and I was stuck there for hours till dinner time then continued after dinner. Won alil and uncle kelly was guarding me so badly, most of my wins were zi mo(s).

Keith boy and yours truly.

Second day of chinese new year, woke up pretty early despite sleeping at 1am the day before.
Ah, I feel better.
Wore shorts, man, my legs were so free I could run/ hop/ skip/ fly.
Aww, man!
Headed to uncle mike's crib for mj, ultimate fun, I zi mo like 5-6 times, extremely lucky that day and my uncles and aunties just can't believe my luck.
Won quite alot cause their stake was alot higher.
Cabbed to eunos, went to bai nian at my biological dad's mom's crib.
Dad wasn't there cause he's in china working on his project.
I kindda miss him.
Hasn't seen him for 6 months now.
Ate lunch there, grannie's cooking is still as heavenly but she's getter older now and I worry for her so much.
Stayed for a few hours then headed to Leon's crib for mj again.
Jerry lost 25.60 to my ahgong, I swore I saw my ahgong's teeth/ gums glow man.
Old folks are the cutest things man. Teehee!
I had to leave halfway, after Kimmy made me sprint on the treadmill, yea, literally sprint.
So I was on it, fat like shit, swaying my hair, and man, I feel so free because ... I AM WEARING SHORTS!
Woohoo. Okay, I know you don't share the same sentiment, but whatever.

I went to Nigel's crib and I honestly enjoyed myself, although his relatives think I looked bored or something.
I was intrigued by his dogs, honestly, swear to God.
I mean, c'mon man, he has 3 dogs, and I fucking only have 2 dogs because I just don't fucking have 3 dogs because this house just don't have 3 dogs.
Argh. So I played with his dogs while he played cards with his cousins.
I was too captivated by his dogs so I didn't join in, and so I continued playing with his dogs.
I felt soooo happy while playing with his dogs, the most adorable creatures ever.
Man, I'm that into dogs.
By the way, he's a really neat freak, he's room is like, wow, cleaner than mine.
Seriously, I ought to go do some reflection.
A guy's room cleaner than a girl's, just imagine that.
I feel so ... manly (!!!).
Imbalance hormones, too little oestrogen, raging testosterone, or somewhat.
Bloody hell.
And oh yes, you can really feel the family warmth, esp if you're an outsider and watching, observing everything.
It's pretty cool in a way.
Very calm environment, I would say.
Must be the feng shui. Heh heh.
Cute cousin he had there, by the way, damn adorable.
Cuter than my annoying lil sis one billion times.

Yesterday, we(orhping,ahlin,jas,fishy,duckie,ct,ct's boyfriend and I) had steamboat at ct's crib(;
Watched protege with orhping and jas at lot 1 before meeting up with duckie and fishy at the supermarket.
And that duckie was super duper late can, by the time she reached, we were alrd done with the shopping.
Then we headed to ct's crib.
That duckie scared jas and I with her stupid ideas.
She's super funny la.
Prepared everything then started to eat our steamboat!
Lots of food and all were super full.
After dinner, started to gamble, first was black jack then mj.
Lose 10 in black jack and only won 1 in mj. HAHS!
Guess I used up all my luck the previous day. hahaha.
And rubbing duckie's belly does help.
She's the super lucky one for that night la, kept ban luck-ing.
Walked fishy home then cabbed home with ah lin and duckie.
Reached home ard 430am, bathed and went straight to bed.
Woke up ard 3pm today, was supposed to go to duckie's place then the plans kept changing.
In the end was supposed to go to fishy's place but I was nua-ing at home and didn't have the mood to go out alrd.
So here I am blogging.
And I'm not gonna talk to mom till she apologize!
I was watching teevee just now and she just came and switched away to the channel that she wanna watch.
SO RUDE!
And I'm very pissed so I turned back then she turned back then I turned back then she turned back... carry on this act for a few mins.
I didn't want to fight with her anymore so I just walked away and she called me childish! wtf!
I'm very angry right now.
FUCKING ANGRY.
Can't wait for them to leave for china man.
5 days of pure freedom!

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up

Boy, no matter what we go through
You step up I'll step up too
It don't matter what the haters say
As long as you are my boo
And no matter how hard it gets
This love will have no regrets
As long as when we steppin on the dancefloor
It's me and you

I'm so stuck on this song. Woohoo, ultimate.

That familiar air of nonchalance.

She's so tragic.

@11:00 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Cliched.

Did spring cleaning today, another annoying tradition made up by some annoying dude.
But I'm very proud of the mess I've cleaned up(;

My desk la.
You might wanna try to spot the difference. haha.

shoessssssss in a mess.

Sparkling clean and neat after MY touch.

After spring cleaning met Nigel and Ben at bpp for a short lunch.

Nigel: So you couldn't have ordered a lobster?
Ben: Dude, macaroni and cheese is food of the Gods!
Nigel: Yeah, if the Gods are five-year-olds ...

What the fuck is wrong with them both uh?

Anyway, Nigel told me about a website which belongs to a gay boy, and it's his diary, well, sort of.
Zomg, he has hot pink finger nails, wears spider leggings, super cute tight jeans, super super pretty boy face etc.
I think he's interesting.
He's really sassy and his name is James.
Like, he said this :
Right now, I like 4 different boys :/
[slut]
Hahaha! He called himself a slut.
Zomg, so hilarious!
And he likes listening to Pussycat Dolls, and dance along, in his spider leggings and strut his stuffs.

Eg, "Push the buttons ... nananana ..." then spin, twirl, shake booty, smack booty, blow kisses at hot guys etc.
Just imagine that!
Bimbotic for girls, cute for gay guys. Adorable!
And apparently, I think he is having a bitchfight with this other gay guy, ( let's just call him David ) 'cause David called him vain and stuff, and James screwed him, saying, "Cinderella, the clock is almost at 12.

So fucking hop in your goddamned pumpkin and shut the fuck up about your pretty glass slippers."
HAHAHA! x 12345678910.
This is my first time hearing a gay bitching about another gay.
He's really funny, almost all the posts are about the cute and hot guys he met.
And he totally love buying MAC make-up, not that he uses them, but he just wants them because he just wants to have some necessities in life, like his favourite best friend, who is a girl.
Like, how cute can this get?
He's learning girls stuff.
Zomg, fucking adorable, ain't it? Teehee!

Nevermind, I just think he's cute.
I mean, yes, guys think gays are disgusting, but c'mon man, it's not like they want it to be like that.
Not like they can help it right?
Give them some space, cut them some slack.
Some gays are plainly adorable.
Besides, James is handsome.

But he's gay so he's just James.
Alright, I'll stop here.
I shan't gross the guys out about gays stuff.
But hey, who knows they themselves are interested?
Tsktsktsk.
Oh, wtf, nevermind!

Will be going out later with sis.
Perhaps get some more tops, like uhm, tees rather than tops.
Sis says she'll go shop with me since she haven bought hers yet.
We're sisters because we always do last minute things. Woohoo!
I'm gon' have a great time trying out all the weirded clothes.
Just for fun, yknow ...

I shall be in the cross-dress mode for this New Year, scare all those elderly, and I bet they'll cross themselves one billion time when they see me. Hahaha!
Be a rebel, makes life fun-er.
Aye, bunch of bull.
My mom will ban me from leaving the house.
And I still can't believe she bought me a dress, like, D-R-E-S-S.
Yes, dress. Zomg, dress?!
How the fuck do you wear a dress?
I mean, yes, I have dress but not my mom's type of dress.
It's so bloody short and well, short!
Eew, wtf kind of dress is that?
I should go auction it.
Man, I hate that piece of MTF fabric.
I can't wear that out.
It's so not comfortable!
You know, I think she's trying to make me into something she hopes to be, if she was my age.
What am I, guinea pig?!
Argh. Yikes!

Go ahead and laugh uh, I curse your teeth fall out, and I shall see how you chew your ba gua man.
Suck them through your nostrils, asshole.
Grr. Curse y'all dickos!

asjfkdhfdl;

Aye, I think I will go get myself an extra straight-cut jeans secretly later on, so on that day, if she insists on me wearing it, I'll tell her I'm having period and no, period cannot wear dress.
Yes, I'll do just that.
Or perhaps shorts, yes, shorts.
So I can jump on sofas, climb over sofas, jump into my gran's arms, play cards lying on the floor, and sit cross-legged. Woohoo!
Man, that's so man, man! HAHA!
I mean, I don't really give a shit even if my mom were to see me like that, and most prolly she'll walk over and kick/ bash me with her long, skinny, no-strength legs.

Goodbye folks ( ;
And HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance la.
Barney is a fuglysaur.

@4:56 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

My unsaid everything.

It was indeed a memorable get together on my birthday.
Met up with jassybud in town, had lunch at "ding tai fen".
I like the food served there especially the fried rice I had and the golden prawn thing.
Finally after so long, got to catch up with my ultimate bestie.
We had so much fun and I thank her for the simple wonders she brings to my life.
I miss her like forever(;
Visuals of jassy and I :

Spent almost half the day in town shopping with jas.
Left town and went to meet ahlin, fishy, ct, jovey and orhping for dinner.
Had so much fun and laughter through out the whole dinner.
Ordered lots of food and can't finished all of em' in the end. HAHA!
After the dinner, we walked to teck whye and everyone was busying gossipping/chatting/joking away.
Reached teck whye and the shop that we wanna go to has already closed for the day:(
So we sat around and cam-whore then went to ct's crib for MJ!
Then duckie finally joined us at ct's crib for mj.
Was losing all the way till the last round when I recover my loses with my wu tai zi mo((; hahha.
And duckie planned surprises. LOL!
She was so hilarious la.
she failed the 1st time but succeeded the second time.
I dig the durian cake duckie brought! VERY YUMMILIOUS!
And it was the first time a birthday cake was all eaten up. *Laughs.
I really appreciate all the efforts ya'all put in on my birthday and I LOVE you guys for always putting that smile on my face.

I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF VERY MUCH AND THANKS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU FOR EVERTHING!
I LOVE x 124567891011121314151617181920!

Jovey-best gay friend and I. HAHA!

Shopping at town with ahlin yesterday, then movie at lot 1 and met up with orhping for dinner as well.
As usual, the visuals will do the talking.
I'm just too lazy to go into details. BAH!

Idiotic ahlin with her super hilarious V-day's gift for eddie.

Ahlin and her don't know what olay cake. LOL!

My orea mocha frappe(;

numero uno okay(:

In my own silent reveries..

Beauty bleeds as night falls.

@4:55 AM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

happy valentine's.

Mm, why do I dread today?
Because it's Valentine's Day.
Oh god, don't even wanna think about it.
I'm facing internal struggle, really, I can't think straight.
I don't like that weirded guy who invented Valentine's Day.
If I remember correctly, jon says it's a Saint Valentine?
Who the heck is he man?

Valentine's Day ... is just another random day spent with family.

Maybe there should be a Kimberly's Day, whereby everyone will write emo letters and mail to themselves.
And draw random kiddy cartoons to make them feel young again.
Yes, I should.
Mm, I think there's a website whereby I can make a day officially mine.
And most prolly I'll have to pay with my life, man, it will cost me a bomb.
I rather be a pimp.
Hey, who says girls cannot be pimps?
I don't like mamasan, sounds like some old auntie.

These are the kind of guys that don't tell you about how hot/ sexy this one girl is, how pretty/ cute she is, and how much they want to screw and sleep with her, and give tons of useless and stupid comments about other girls.
These are the guys with the purest of hearts, and I hope that one day, all girls can at least meet guys like these, and dump those jerk boyfriends who are apparently just some bunch of lustful creatures.
And of course, pray that they themselves won't go for a guy just because he's rich/ handsome/ popular/ etc.
Times have changed.
Man, I'm a real old-fashioned lover.
I dream the almost impossible.
But at least now I know one guy who isn't like that, and that's enough for now.

Where've all the good guys gone?

I can't believe I stared at Mr Good Guy one billion times and I seriously feels that he's a very special person, and he has this good aura about him, mm, that's pretty cool.
I mean, I seldom expect much from guys, but if I ever were to lay out my expectations, he's the first to overshoot my expectations of a good guy.
He's the man!
Alright, enough praising for today.
I just adore him.

Don't bother asking me who, I'm not telling. Mr Good Guy is just ... my Mr Good Guy.
Aye, Mr Good Guy hopes to be a Brother, and then the world will be short of one more good guy.
This is such a heartbreaking issue ) ';
Perhaps different people have different views and expectations, and please don't let my words poison your personal expectations of the opposite gender.
All I've to say is that good guys ... they do exist.

If you're a guy, read here ;
Tips for guys to win the girls ( surveyed and analysed )

1) Don't attempt acting cool and hot and blahblahblah, just be yourself.
Because you may think you look hot etc, but when girls look at you, they'll just see you as a poser.

2) Ever heard of "geeks get the girls"?
So don't be jealous when girls fall for geeks instead of the hotter ones.
To girls, it's always innocent guys over hotties wannabes.
Also, the quieter ones tend to win over the girls, not the loudmouths.

3) If you've read the top two, and is telling yourself, "Perhaps I should heed the advices ..." Congrats, you may already have someone out there having a die-hard crush on you.
If you've read them and thought, "These are bull. I'm the hottest, nobody can beat me to it ..." or "I'm a girl magnet, sugar ..."
Well, fyi, you should have at least earned yourself at least two haters - key word : at least.
For other cases, in which you yourself think girls are all over you and you were thinking the second option, just be careful.
You may come across your nude photo on the net while you're surfing porn. Just a thing to take note, don't say I didn't warn you.

Breath-taker.

@11:29 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

The alcohol burns.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

Getting over and done with the examinations has evidently taken a remarkable load off my mind.
It's funny how the "stress season" wavers.
You know how intricately detailed is the inside of one's emotions?
It's so profound that it is almost implausible to be put in words.
At times, I put my defences up to protect myself from your intentions.
Even so, I still can't seem to completely conjugate this situation.
You've taken monopoly of everything that we have.
I penned down my deepest and most private thoughts into a diary last night.
Because I know that's where I can seek closure.

The complication and perplexity in a person's mind is an ultimate terrorist to one's life.
You think more than what your two hands can do.
Has it ever occured that the lines on the palm of your hands means so much yet can only say so little?
How ironic yet amazingly profund.

The talk with Nigel earlier on awoke my senses to life's pragmatism and the veracity of reality.
The works of karma and nature work together, whether you like it or not.
Subconsciously, all good things come back to you only when your intentions are pure.
However on the direct contrary, some people just get all the damn luck despite their despicable acts.
It seems so absurd yet real.

I look at a patissier and I see everything that I want in an individual.
But will it still be 10 years down the road?
It's an untouchable goal,
An unforseen wish,
An almost impossible yet seemingly possible mission.
I do sit and ponder half of the time with sense and half of it without any sense at all.
I speak my mind but sometimes the words just don't come out right.
Choking on my own tears and words feels so much better than controlling my emotions, than having a positive cause that holds only short lived happiness.
My idiosyncrisis clashes with what's in my heart and soul.
The quintessential art of imperfection.
That's me.

Done up my hair with mom today(;
Thanks mommy, ILU x 12345678910!
It seems that it was much easier meeting up with my classies than my good ol' buds nowadays.
Met up with amanda, ben, nigel, qing, jon and fiq at cross st.
Zomg, it's been so long since we chilled like this.
The bliss, the laughters, the contentment of the simplest things in life COUNTS.
It was just all I needed.
Thanks ya'all for all the precious commodities.
Our little talks get me way up into cloud 9.
You guys make me feel like the ultimate numero uno and that's why i love all of you.
The most sinful chocolate fondue and tapas left me wreathed in smiles for the rest of the night.
Definitely the most outrageous indulgence ever.
The day today was so well spent that I wished it would never end.
But ben was weirdddd.., he said I was tryna avoid him the whole night BUT I was simply enjoying myself.
Anyways, Nigel gave me this reallly cute card he made himself, I swear it was the cutest gift I've ever received.
Thank you, Nigel! love you la, bro.
Thank you amanda for your very sexy kiss and top, ben for that nice watch, qing for that cool pumps, jon and fiq for that addidas shirt and the treat!
I LOVE YA"ALL TO THE CORE!
Every single moment was just heartwarming yet ironically , it's almost just the fundamentals of any friendship.
I could just smile and fall asleep in those thoughts.

p/s: thanks every single soul who gave me their blessings tonight! I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU GUYS(;

Psychological warfare seems to be the only terrorist that harms love , friendship and the bond of it all.

@2:36 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

ass kicking.

Kimberly ; says:
i'm gg to study now.

Nigel - junkies says:
but i have alot to upload u.

Kimberly ; says:
which part of my body looks like a hardware?
does my nose looks like a C drive?

Nigel - junkies says:
aye, i mean update ok.hahaha

Kimberly ; says:
update me tmr la, can talk forever, now not free.

Nigel - junkies says:
alright then.

Kimberly ; says:
Ok i'll catch you son
*soon

Nigel - junkies says::
catch you daughter
soon*

I swear you can never find another subtle ass kicking dude like him.

@3:17 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Scratch your name on the side of the bullet.

Man, I feel fat you know.
But then again, I jogged today, felt much better.
I swear my calves are like, so manly now. Eew?
Nevermind, better than fat.
What the fuck, this is how I console myself.
I'm pathetic, you know. HAHA.

I hope Nigel would cheer up.
He was reproaching himself after the jog because he didn't manage to get the timing he wanted.
I was feeling so bad just sitting there listening to him scolding himself "Ah, shit!"
He's doing what others expect of him, to get into top twenty.
But I already know he did his best okay.
That's all that counts afterall.
And I'm pretty confident he'll get a medal ( at least, he's definitely capable of more ) for track nationals instead.
I saw him run today and oh boy, that boy runs like the wind.
Honestly, he's a sprinter, not long distance runner.
Short distance is his forte, not long distance.
And being able to have such a good stamina is very good already.
Unlike me, can't do too long a distance.
Me doing long distance is like frenching an elephant's trunk for 8 hours straight.
Okay, bad example, but you get the idea.

To me, Nigel is, and always will be the best.
And I'm saying this based on fact, not on account that we're good friends okay.
I mean, you would know if you know him.
Well, everyone knows already.
It's a fact, he's just good.
And no, Nigel is not my boyfriend, so stop shooting me those dagger stares!
Nigel is like, my girlfriend (?!!)
He's so gon' scream if he knew I change his sex without telling him, but you know those girls that are after him, I bet they hate me.
I heard from PM that these group of weirded girls are talking about me.
Like, asdfghjkl. Do I know you?
NO!

Quote : "You need an eyecandy!"
No, I don't. I just stare at everyone. Got a problem with that?

@11:33 PM

My quintessential array of dreams about you & me.

My mom is so obsessed with that "steamer"(for clothes, those kind that are used in shops to iron clothes) dad brought her, that she is steaming almost everything at home, right down to my bra and panties!
Super annoying and hilarious, I can't stand it anymore so I went to hide her steamer.
Serves her right for annoying me. HAHA!
But the peace only lasted for a day cause she found it alrd. ARRRR.
Anyway, mom's birthday gift to me was a medicure and pedicure and since I was very free yesterday, I went to get my nails done.
After that, went over to ahlin's place for MJ (;
Played only one round and I lose but still, I enjoyed the time spent.
We were talking/gossiping/laughing the whole time.
I miss times like those, those never-ending kind of happiness!
Reached home around 3am I think and fell asleep as sonn as I touched my bed. hahs.

Was supposed to meet Nigel at 2pm but I overslept so we met at 3pm instead.
I'm really sorry, Nigel for always letting you wait!
I'm terribly sorry la.
And I soooo wanted to go to town with duckie today BUT I alrd promised Nigel to go mugging :(
Nigel and I had to come up with something for bps, kindda like a poem or something.
BAH! waste of time, if not for that 60% of marks, who cares right.
But I love this piece done by Nigel and I ;

For love needs no formalities.
Just the comfort and security of it all.
They say familiriaty breeds contempt.
But I beg to differ.
Because nothing ever falls apart if you don't let it.

As of now,
with a notebook in hand,
we write about our lives as we watch the sunrise.
And when we grow old together,
we read what we wrote and reminisce over coffee bread & butter.
There's nothing more I could ask for.
I'm in utter bliss.

See, we share same opinions, same feelings about almost anything and same horoscpoe!
HAHA, that's why we click so well.
Oh yes, if you don't know this one person very well, like NOT very well, and he calls you his "dear", how the heck do you react and not hurt his feelings because he's a nice person uh? Perhaps I'm over-sensitive, or something.
Perhaps he's just too open for me.
Mm, shall see what is this, somehow.
Oh well, zomg.

I did a radical construction to my delicate self.
At least I think I did.
So to speak, I am trying to be happy with what I have achieved and gained rather than wallow in pity and straining my guts out with whatever I'm lacking.

Just the other day through yet another reverie , I silently asked myself whether I was happier then or now.
Ironically, I wasn't eager to take that thought to a higher level.
I decided that nonchalantly neglecting it would be a better idea.
And so I did.
But the truth is,
I think I was happier then.

I need a wake up call because I am constantly inundated with self-confusion , hence, the complexity of my negative life issues are perpetually being executed.
Everything still seems wrong even though it may not appear so.
Sometimes too much of the right words leads to nothing.
Because actions play the predominant role.
Period.

Because I don't like what I see in the mirror.

@6:46 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

Rainbows and butterflies .

Congrats, Ben & Nigel!

Anyway, congrats again, you two!
One is a swimmer with the perfect physique that makes all the guys drool ( zomfg, honestly, ask Nigel ), the other's a runner with long, sexy legs ( he insists on including leg hair, so okay, fine, a few strands, maybe twenty, that's the max I can give, son ), they're the perfect combination to take part in a biathalon .
Oh man, I overslept ytd, suppose to go down to NP to support and cheer/ shake pom poms/ etc for them .
Blah, I should have taken the effort to wake up .
Conclusion : I'm a lazy fat ass .
But I'm still damn proud of the two of them .
Wow, biathalon, 4th position somemore!
It's a great thing .
Biathalon, is a scary word .
I mean, to people like me, it's scary la .
BIATHALON. Ooo, scary!

You know, when Ben and Nigel stand together, they look like two boy best friends, esp when they're almost the same height, same physique .
Quite cool uh, I wish I were as tall .
That's a jolly good ten cm plus difference in height by the way .
I mean, unless I go for those super annoyingly painful bloody leg extension surgery and hey, maybe, y'know .
Or even attempt to walk on stilts or something . Bullshit!
I'm just not tall and everyone blocks my view .
I smell people's armpits because I'm short .
End of story, fullstop .
Life's a bitch!
And armpits are not meant for smelling .

Okay, this is glenn's(cuzzy) back, he insisted that his back is damn sexy?
I'm bringing sexy back, yeah!
But I think he's just very fit .
HAHAHAHAHA!

By the way, Weird Al Yankovic is retarded .
Stupid songs, really, it's damn stupid and annoyingly funny .
Zomfg, bunch of dickies .
Go watch their White & Nerdy clip . Hahaha!

You know I'm really sick of the stories we hear about you .
The things you say, the things you do, and all the stupid lies you effortlessly make .
No doubt it does not directly affect me or us in any way, but that's also because Im already way immune to it .
Your constant moodswings and attitudes are what we all have to put up with all the time, not to mention the remarks you make about each and every one of us .
Haven you realised that all of us have already seen through that fake smile of yours?
So stop it already .
All of what you are doing is so pri-ma-ry school .
Tell me, just how far are you from being a hypocrite .
You can jolly well continue spinning more lies because I know you really enjoy doing it .
Well then again, I doubt you even know I'm talking about you .

Closed doors, opened hearts ♥

@1:12 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE SISTER (;

Made this cake for her, exactly the same as orhping's one .

Just that the inside is choc cake .

Had steamboat at home too(;

I love home steamboat because I get to eat all the food I love without sweating like a pig .HAHA!

Yummilicious .

emotions grow♥

Someone out there was meant to be the love of your life .

The one you can tell your dreams to, and he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh .

He'll brush the hair out of your face, and he'll stare at you during a movie even though he paid $8 to see it .

He'll call and texts you everyday without fail to tell you how he couldn't stop thinking about you .

And most importantly, he'll look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen .

He'll say countless times of "I love you, baby." and meant them from the bottom of his heart .

And for the first time in your life, you'll actually believe it .

You know how you can love this one guy so much, and never doubt he'll love you ten times more?

Dr Doolittle's( ;

@11:37 PM

Old enough to know better, too young to care .

The never ending lab tests that causes me to lose my mind .
The projects that take a toll on me .
The assignments conveniently piling up on me .
The fucking upcoming exams .
Poly's a bitch this I swear .

Mr Sng(eye problem) is a sweetheart .
He gave me a sticker because for my re-test, I got full marks!
Heh heh, I'm no longer depressed .
Because Mr Sng gave me a sticker .
So bloody childish, but I like!

We have pen fights, secretly drawing on each others' arms during PEEE lect, chasing each other all over the place, squeezing each others' arms .
Nobody wants to give us paint for an actual project during gems, because it will all end up on us, mixed and painted on our palms, and we'll wipe them everywhere, imagining ourselves to be great artists .
We can never concentrate on anything when we're together, and it's probably a bad idea to give us something complicated to do .
We laugh about absolutely nothing, and get in trouble with Mr gupta all the time .
But all of these, it's what makes us best friends (;

Thanks, Nigel!
For lending me your listening ear today. You're the best guyfriend ever! (;

Met up with vone, orhping and ahlin after my PEEE paper yesterday .
Had dinner at lot 1 then went to catch a movie; "Happy Birthday" .
Not bad, pretty touching but a little too slow for my liking .
BUT gu tian le is smoking HOT!
After movie, went to 302 for beancurd and cabbed back shortly after .
Ahlin told me smth in the cab and I want to say thanks to that person hur .LOL .

mummy, can I quit school please?
Running for the door, come and take me home.

@5:04 PM