HAPPY BIRTHDAY FUTURE BRO-IN-LAW,JERRY(:
All the best and please finish NS soon! laughs.
lots of love!

Bury me.

As usual, a year has passed.
As cliche as this is gonna sound, everything happened like it was just yesterday.
I'm starting to believe that this is quite the way of how destiny works.
Are New Year resolutions indeed salient to one or is it just another mundane routine that all us common people keep up with?
Neither promises nor guarantees attached to what we perceive to be as "resolutions".
How utterly miserable and pathetic.
Talking about how 365 days go by,
Fo'real, time and tide waits for no man.
On the contrary, was there ever a need for us to keep up with time?
Then again, perhaps, it was just a gauge to our placement in life.
It's all these random thoughts that run through me every other day.
In retrospect, there seems to be so much more locked inside.
For once, I finally feel that the issues and problems in my life are insurmountable.
More like insurmountable AND never ending.

Here are some things I need/hope to accomplish.
Clean up the mess I’ve created and get it done and over with.
Get my admission to the new course done ASAP.
Get my dad to propagandized against me driving a bike.
Get my 2b bike license.
Get my dream bike.
Get my babies a lot more toys and snacks and maybe one day a room for em’ solely.
Get another pup, something like chocolate.
Get a good job that pays well. Tsktsk.
Start my new course on a happy note.
Lastly, go on a holiday with my girls(:

Met rainySohahlin and estherLimorhping just now.
They were late and even lied to me. ANGRY!
Anyway, we were bitching as usual.
Bitched from the coffee shop to the void deck till 12plus.
And here I am, back in my crib, blogging away, cant get to sleep yet.
Things have been bothering me.
And I desperately need some time to figure things out.
So are you sure?
So you’re just gonna waste all the efforts you’ve put in?
Will you regret doing this?
But you’re gonna waste one year just like that, you know.
Is this really what you want?
You have wasted one year.
At times like this, I really don’t wanna hear or analyze or comprehend any of these shits.
I DON’T NEED IT, REALLY!
I’m very much wishing I can break free.
Break away & forget about the rest of the world.
I don't wanna struggle in the deep tunnel any longer.
My rationale for not wanting it anymore is to avoid the constant pain it brings.
I can't put you above me and im afraid im doing this for nothing.
Where will all these lead to eventually?
Oh, I do hate feeling this way.
This nudging urge to take a step forward suddenly seems so stupid.
My heart tore into two.
Yes, literally.


I wish mister year 2007 would grant me a fresh new start.

受了点伤

My love，晚安 就别再为难 别管我会受伤
想开 体谅 我已经习惯 不然又能怎样？
这个城市太会说谎
爱情只是昂贵的櫥窗
沿路华丽灿烂 陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当
竟然以为你会不一样 但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷 虚构出的温暖
沒理由能撑到天亮

前进 转弯 我跌跌撞撞 在这迷宫打转
死心 失望 会比较简单 却又心有不甘
这个城市太会伪装 爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后 却把灯忘了关 让梦作得太辉煌
以为能够留你在身旁 但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫做好聚好散
别说你对我感到愧疚 别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走 请你不要安慰我
My love，晚安 别放在心上


Im really pissed with the connection nowadays.
Dont know wht's happening but most website seems to be down.
The whole of ytd I cant get into friendster.
Today photobucket.cbox.iwebmusic and blogger is a lil' cocked up too.
It's the 28th alrd, 2006 is coming to an end soon.
How times files hur.


Tabloid and crossfire.

Underneath the bitter snow.

Why do I have to lie to myself all the time so as not to hurt other people's feelings?
It seems they never really cared about mine in the first place.
Forget about that, such unhappy nonsense.
Today will be a better day.
I'll smile at everyone even if inside it hurts like crap.
Well, come to think of it, everything is crap and I'm getting used to it.

Ytd was x'mas and we had steamboat at yuqi's place.
And I made a really funny friend and her name is YULUAN. hahahas.
She's my good friend and duckie's best friend(:
Played cards.mj.indianpoker.
Drank alil of tht digusting and very very salty drink tht yuluan and I made.
Holy jamalama, was about to vomit can.HAHAA!
Thn rainySohahlin, chen ji, zhi wei, zhi wei's girl and guan li joined us way way ltr.
And we played mj till 4plus in the morning.
Thn chen ji sent all of us home.
Stupid duckie kept making us laugh all the way back home.
Had sucha fun day ytd(:

I love x'mas, dont you?

Feed my apathy.

Haven't I told you guys tht my baby was pregnant!
Yeah, you heard me my nana's pregnant.
She gave birth at jerry's place on the 23rd.
However, sadly, her pup was in breech position and things didnt look gd at tht point of time.
Kimmy was the one who helped her deliver, she actually cried during and after the delivery.
Baby's pup looked weak:(
Nana looked tired and her contractions were not strong enough to push her pup out.
And yes, as guessed, her pup didnt manage to survived.
It's a beautiful female pup okay.
I feel so damn sad, till now.
Well, life's a joke, aint it.
Kimmy stayed up till late night, thinking tht she'll deliver 3 more or something.
We brought her to the vet few days ago, and she said she felt 2 babies and probably there's more as Nana's tummy is big.
Well, tht was what we thought so too.
Amazing thing is she only gave birth to that only ONE and tht's abt it.
Baby came out of the cage and did a poo and seemed somehow relax.
Till now, she's running around as usual.
Like she was before she got pregnant.Haha.
Anyway, I hope my lil' pup RIP.
And it's the first time jerry's so freaking anxious and stressed up.
He stayed up till 430am just to watch over her.
Sucha sweet guy, my sister has.
Im missing my lil' pup alrd:(

just another liability.

Over the sea and far away.

Today is Christmas Eve, so here I am, giving you folks an early and advanced Merry Christmas wish.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
And it's evelynNgeveeve's plus seanLeeweiquan's BIRTHDAY TOO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEC BABIES(:

Say if I had 200 million dollars.
I wouldn't be wallowing in minimalism.
I dont care even if it means having to spend it all in a year and have none left.
I would want a private jet.
I would want all the series of designer and dope brands you can ever get your hands on.
I would want a classic jaguar XK series.
Till I am left with nothing but ten bucks in my pocket,
I would then start to think how I've taken advantage of everything I had.

Now, isnt tht how things goes for all of us?
We never realise what we really have when everything's laid in front of us.
It's only when we are out of it then we start to look back and feel like we could have done so much more.


Santa, my house doesn't have a chimney.
Would you mind coming through the front door?
No, wait, you don't exist at all, do you?
Forget it, Santa, you lied.

My private emotions.

I am lost in a maze of my own emotions & I dont know what I want.
What should i do?
And I so hate rainy days, fuck it.
They make me so moody, so sleepy, so wasted.
I feel like crap, ask me why?
Well, because I just do, for so many reasons I got them all mixed up.
Is this good enough?
Fuck cravings. Fuck everything.
My body is failing me, know what I feel like doing?
I feel like running at the top deck of the carpark, with the streetlights shining down on me, with the heavy rain drenching me and I'll tell the world again tht I'm nothing.
Very dramatic, I know.( I watch too much teevee.)
One day, I'll pack my bag and run so far away, to a place where nobody can find me, to a place nobody knows me. One day.

Note: Pardon the vulgarities. It's only the beginning.



Chocolates from Chocz, mashmallows, mars, snickers, ferrero etc.
Cookie from Famous Amos, boxes, wow!
I must resist! Must resist!
But tell me how to resist?!
Oh man, I'm gon' be a fat cow this jolly season.
Goodbye(:


Bitches are bitches.
Jealousy eats them inside out.

When you could touch nothing.

Sometimes, I wish I could be a little kid again.
So when life gets tough you can play pretend.
I wanna go back to when Santa did exist, when daddy was the only boy you ever kissed.
When disney world was the best place to be.
When the only movies you watched were only rated PG.
When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change.
And all your friends were the same.
Everytime you were sad or you had a bad day you could just run to mummy and it would all be okay.
When the best place to shop was Toys 'R Us.
When it was just scary to ride the bus.
Before you ever had a broken heart and the pain of being in love just didn't start.
I wanna go back to no hurt, no pain and just laughter.
WHEN EVERY0NE LIVES HAPPILY EVER AFTER.


when will the bloody rain stop?!

Till the stars fall from the sky.

TO THE LEFT, TO THE LEFT.
Okay, this line has been ringing in my head.hahhaas.
Im bloddy in love with this song!

Saturday's kelong outing was superb :]
Rain.fishy.orhping.eveeve.jassy.me&eveeve'sfamily were there.
Derrick hasnt grown abit, still so cute & lively.
Just looking at him handle the four big dogs with no fear at all really makes me laugh.HAHA!
He's just one cuttie!
Guess it wasnt our day, cause we didnt manage to catch alot of fish.heh heh.
I manage to caught only a very miserable fish which isnt really big :( LOL!
Eveeve's aunt is super li hai I must say, she caught like ten over fishes LOR.
Orhping & rain left early cause they needa work:(
The rest of us left at about 7pm I think, jassy & fishy went hm in eve's uncle car & I went back with eve's family & eveeve.
Had a little "chatting" session in the bus which I very much miss doing with eveeve.
I miss those ol'times very much.
Everyone's super tanned/burnt after kelong-ing. laughs!
Ltr tht night, eveeve.orhping.fishy&me gathered at fishy's place for mj.
Waited for tht orhping for like super long.
Fishy's bro(shan wei) is very shy & we kept disturbing him. HAHA!
Had sucha fun time the whole day:)))))))

In daddy's car, waiting for daddy to finish filling up his tank.

We were really bored. sweetLOVE :]

Sunday was mummy's birthday.
Waking up at 6plus was tedious since I slept at 2plus.
First thing I did was to present mummy the guess bag I brought for her & gave her my greetings :]
I LOVE HER VERY MUCH.
Then went to wash up & left my place at 7plus then headed straight for malaysia.
Slept like a pig in dad's car.hahhahah.
Had a really great time in malacca, did lotsa shopping.
Brougth a addidas jacket.addidas tee&shorts.
Kimmy & mom shopped like crazy, poor daddy & jerry, im sure there's a big holly in their pockets now. hahahhahaas.
Actually we were supposed to go to desaru(a beach) but daddy missed the exit along the highway so he went straight to malacca.
Daddy said:"one wrong turn & I die a horrible death." hahahhahas.
Had malacca's famous chicken rice ball for lunch, YUMMY!
But the place was really difficult to locate, all the way dwn a small alley.
after lunch, drove to J.B's some sort of flea market.
saw many beautiful things.
I brought a necklace.4 pairs of ear studs.sandals there & its only 23 s'pore dollars. uber cheap.
Kimmy brought a sun dress.necklace.ear rings&one striking yellow heels for just 20 s'pore dollars.
Mummy&sherry brought necklaces&bags for merely bout 8 s'pore dollars.
After tht, headed to New Lucky Seafood resturant for dinner.
Had blackpeppercrab.buttercrayfish.drunkenprawn.hotplatepig'sliver.sambalkakong.creambuttersotong& deserts.
The food was wonderful, taste better thn s'pore's seafood restuarant.
All for just 75 s'pore dollars.
After dinner went to my daddy's friend cd shop & brought many dvds.
stepup.deathnote.materialgirls.johntuckermustdie.saw3.sanchakou.
Everything's very cheap there la.
Reached home ard 1:25am cause of the bloody omfg&%%wtfhdfhduf jam at the J.B checkpoint.
How retarded can malaysians be hur?!
Opened only 4 counters at their checkpoint on peak hours. DUH!
Jam for 3 fucking hours alright! waste of time & petrol.
Many cars broke dwn along the way man.

Woke up ard 2pm on monday.
Activities of the day:
1. watched materialgirls&johntuckermustdie.
2. helped mummy with a lil house chores.
3. went to meet rainySohlinlin.rachelSohqingqing&orhping for mj session.
4. headed to cc's coffee shop for supper & chatted till ard 2am cause of the rain.

Very funny looking rainySohlinlin. HAHAHS!


limOrhping.rainySohlinlin. it was ubberly cold tht night.





So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin' you're irreplaceable.

this night, this age.

fugly la, stupid kimmy.

I guess this is retribution la.
what sins have I committed to have to do this?!

Dont mend what aint broken.

So long now as my life awaits.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PU CHEN JI!
wish you all the best!

I'm so into oldies this few days.
no idea why, but it's all just so pleasing to my ears.
I swear "desperado" by the eagles is vintage audio fo'real.

You can't shake hands with a clenched fist.

hasn't been blogging for some time now.

It's as if my heart knows your the missing piece.

ITS JUST ME ; LOVE ME.
18 yrs of tragedy.
stinky stubborn.
always sensitive.
I have a changing personality
I am who I am.
<3 MOM:)
<3 chocolates.
<3 friends&famillayye♥
<3 netball.
<3 vintageAUDIO :D
<3 BAKERY.
<3 decorations.
<3 TRAVELLING.
<3 people who sterotype.
<3 Hypocrites.
<3 Cigars inventors
<3 Morning lectures.
<3 Guys with humongous EGO.
<3 Restrictions.
<3 MCP(s)

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I don't love you.

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you, like I did, yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you, like I did, yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday"

I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday

I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday