why do we have to celebrate new year ?

IM FREAKING OUT !

been busy for the last few days collecting red packets. LOLS !
i forgot to mention that i'll get to do spring cleanning before CNY in my last post. which i hope my mum and dad will forget the next year. hahas. i wonder which idiot invented the "spring cleanning" thing. aint festivals lyk CNY meant to be periods of joy ? then why do we hafta do cleanning which is torturing ? alright alright, i'll stop complaining now.
next week is gonna be a hectic one. working, getting results, bbq and aunt's open hse. oh my, spending spending and spending i reckon. hahas.

i think something's wrong with me recently. im missing someone and all the thoughts coming are unusual. i jus hope things get better. btw, now i realised i have to make an advance booking before i can go out with my best bud. hahas. so getting use to it.

at night,
at night i lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
at night i wonder can this be the end is this all that`s left
at night i wish we could go to the way things were
at night i lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
at night i lay and think of the past
at night i realize that`s no more there
at night i dream of you again
at night i wish for us to be together
but in the morning i realize it was all
atNIGHT

kiims`SQUARE-//

until i learn the lesson, it does no good to cry.

.// results on the 1oth //.

GOD PLSSS BLESS ME !!!

im nervous,
excited,
scare,
and
worried

ABOUT

my results.

doubt i'll fall aslp the night before. hahas. im so worried larr. to make it worse, my dad have to keep asking what im planning to do after obtainning my results. he's so damn irritating.
ask me to have a god damn plan B when i said ive decided to go to poly. in the first place DONT ASK ME. hahas.

one thing i love about my mum is that she've interfere in anything i do, she jus gives me advice. she's always saying :" go do ur thing, make ur own decision and live with it. " this makes her so cool to me. unlike some mums who die die want their kids to get into this and that. that's jus so stupid. so wad if ur child listens to you and she/he is not happy ? other than ths she's just a typical mum i love. i just hate her NAGGING !! lols.

and and and CHINESE NEW YEAR is coming. hahahahass.
so looking forward to it. RED PACKETS here i come.
other than red packets, i get to :

o1. eat granny's delicious and mouth watering dishes.
o2. play with all my cuzzies. (so CUTE)
o3. deliver oranges.
o4. collect back oranges.
o5. chit chat with lynn tat sweetie.
o6. beat up glenn tat idiot.
o7. fill ryan and wayne faces with kisses. hhas
o8. hear my relatives say the same old thing agn. (maybe something different this time i hope.)
o9. play MJ openly infront of my dad. LOLS !
1o. lastly, count my red packets and see if the economy's gd this yr. =))
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the benefit of doubt,,,

kiims`SQUARE ;

trulyAbitch !

NICEfineDAY__

ytd went to town with voneDARL. hahas. had so much fun larr. the freaking women at pastamania was so irritating, she speaks so loudly as if her bf was miles away from her. lyk what the fuck ! and she is damn rude to the waitress. ppl dont owe you a living man. how come such ppl still exist ? oh...my...god... then we venture off to ccab, saw their match, i had say they did pretty well and they won ! woohoo ! job well done ppls. flashbacks, the times when i was playing on court. i so miss the times, nvr had such feeling. nvr had the chance to sit by the side and see ur team plays. i nvr had sucha feeling. lols. im so missing the times we played on court, when we fooled ard and got scolded. no more, no more such feelings. we're all going our ways. just wish allof us will do well. love ya`all.

im gonna start complaining agn. about who ? that BITCH agn. arrrrgs. im always complaining bout her cos i really cant stand her alright. lyk what the fuck is wrong with her freaking pea brain ? she's so stupid can and so irresponsible.

kiims/kSQUARE.

fixing a broken family ;

'' the many times i feel unsure ''

my dad picked me up ytd, we talked and here goes:

a drive home leads to a simple conversation, dad talks with his daug.
not long before the friendly chat turns into frustration and the conversation evolves into an argument in which self-prides prevent any conclusion. the disagreements never ending and a sorrow left to continue.
now a household, a home, a community tries to sustain itself from the pain that flows daily.
a sisterhood, fatherhood and motherhood, all linked together to keep a hold on the bond they once all shared. yet what if a link lets go or breaks free from the rest, the household is torn and ends of the linked chain are left to themselves, what holds this family together? eventually the rest stray away and so easily a family is broken.

my sisters moves on and begins a lonely life,
my dad now has no one to teach him the values of learning the unexpected and inexperienced.

so easily a family is broken.

my mother gives up her life and has no hope for better,
Now whr could i gotta go reach for answers and gain faith ?
Nowhere !
and im left stranded.
a void in my heart to _love my mother is gained and i weakens and crumbles.

so easily a family is broken.

an old memory passes through my mind,
it`s a gift sent from the one person i`ve left,
a reminder, a sole hope in my life, i feels that i`ve a task.
a task im desperate to fulfill, the one thing that would lighten me up.
so i goes about with my ideas, the main one of bringing my family together.
i tries with the same persistence after each failure and doesn’t give up,but nothing ever works ! it is so hard to find the original fitting pieces and rejoin a broken family
then i finally realizes,
So easily a family is broken.

they shared so many happy moments tgt and now this is wad`s left behind. my happy-go-lucky mum is gone, my lame yet loveable mum is gone, my always naggy yet caring and sweet mum is gone too. WHY ?! i really dont uds.




Roses dont show love, they symbolize it. Beautiful but painful, hurts but everyone wants to sniff it and see wad it`s like for themselves, getting hurt in the process.

THEwayiAM !

BEAUTIFULLY BROKEN ;

ALRIGHTY ! no work on monday. hahas. im the only one working for today and tmr. why ? becos they are having d&d but i didnt wanna go so im working. LOLS ! i know this is stupid but in the first place randy told me its off day and the pauline have to spoil all these happiness and said i cant go on leave. LYK WAD THE FUCK !! nevertheless, randy and andy make my day. andy told me he'll make it up by paying me more and randy told me im off on monday. WOOHOO !!!! GREAT BOSSES. hahas. seriously, i meet great ppl here. excluding you-know-who.

imma fool for 4 hrs today btw. lols. standing outside the freaking office waiting for theresa to bring the door keys to open the door so i can go in. im so scare tat customers will come but lucky me, none came. hahas. tmr's their game, i wish ya`all BEST OF LUCK !! DONT FEEL NO PAIN !! CHEER UP GALS !! SUPPORTING YA`ALL TILL THE END. LOVES =))

kiims`square-//

when im gone;

weekly update it has been. shag !

SO SORRY LIL BRO ! PARDON ME WILL YOU ?

okayy, im blogging now.

my world is spinning so is my head. i jus cant stand the pain anymore. everything is so in order now tat it sucks BIG TIME. i totally hate it.


harsh words and violent blows,hidden secrets nobody knows.
eyes are open, hands are fisted.
deep inside I'm warped and twisted,so many tricks and so many lies.
too many whens and too many whys,nobody's special, nobody's gifted.

im just me, warped and twisted.

slping awake and choking on a dream,listening loudly to a _{silent scream}.
call my mind, the number's unlisted,lost in someone so warped and twisted.
on my knees, alive but dead.
look at the _invisible blood ive bled,im not gone, my mind has drifted.
dont expect much, im warped and twisted,burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow.
today's just yesterday's tomorrow !
the sun died out, the ashes sifted.

im still here, warped and twisted.

thats all folks.

let it shine, can i ?
whr's my _sunshine ?

IM SO S.O.R.R.Y

ITS BEEN AGES SINCE I LAST BLOG. WAHAHAHAS.

LOLS ! i seriously need a break man. facing all kinds of ppl at work and tolerating all that bloody BITCH nonsenses. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. okayy, im going crazy yah right yah right. IM MAD. but still working was fun because of ppl lyk faith, elsie and sophie,they're nice ppl.!! now i realise *he aint wad he seems to be. lols. he is super "not lyk who-he-is-supposed-to-be" can. he's lyk a lil grown up kid in private. LOLS ! he's 26 yet he claims he jus finish poly. wad an idiot. hahas. though he does look young. he said im so young jus lyk him. LOLS.

kiims/kSQUARE.

It's as if my heart knows your the missing piece.

ITS JUST ME ; LOVE ME.
18 yrs of tragedy.
stinky stubborn.
always sensitive.
I have a changing personality
I am who I am.
<3 MOM:)
<3 chocolates.
<3 friends&famillayye♥
<3 netball.
<3 vintageAUDIO :D
<3 BAKERY.
<3 decorations.
<3 TRAVELLING.
<3 people who sterotype.
<3 Hypocrites.
<3 Cigars inventors
<3 Morning lectures.
<3 Guys with humongous EGO.
<3 Restrictions.
<3 MCP(s)

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I don't love you.

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you, like I did, yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you, like I did, yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday"

I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday

I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday