Saturday, December 30, 2006
Bury me. As usual, a year has passed.
As cliche as this is gonna sound, everything happened like it was just yesterday.
I'm starting to believe that this is quite the way of how destiny works.
Are New Year resolutions indeed salient to one or is it just another mundane routine that all us common people keep up with?
Neither promises nor guarantees attached to what we perceive to be as "resolutions".
How utterly miserable and pathetic.
Talking about how 365 days go by,
Fo'real, time and tide waits for no man.
On the contrary, was there ever a need for us to keep up with time?
Then again, perhaps, it was just a gauge to our placement in life.
It's all these random thoughts that run through me every other day.
In retrospect, there seems to be so much more locked inside.
For once, I finally feel that the issues and problems in my life are insurmountable.
More like insurmountable AND never ending.
Here are some things I need/hope to accomplish.
Clean up the mess I’ve created and get it done and over with.
Get my admission to the new course done ASAP.
Get my dad to propagandized against me driving a bike.
Get my 2b bike license.
Get my dream bike.
Get my babies a lot more toys and snacks and maybe one day a room for em’ solely.
Get another pup, something like chocolate.
Get a good job that pays well. Tsktsk.
Start my new course on a happy note.
Lastly, go on a holiday with my girls(:
Met rainySohahlin and estherLimorhping just now.
They were late and even lied to me. ANGRY!
Anyway, we were bitching as usual.
Bitched from the coffee shop to the void deck till 12plus.
And here I am, back in my crib, blogging away, cant get to sleep yet.
Things have been bothering me.
And I desperately need some time to figure things out.
So are you sure?
So you’re just gonna waste all the efforts you’ve put in?
Will you regret doing this?
But you’re gonna waste one year just like that, you know.
Is this really what you want?
You have wasted one year.
At times like this, I really don’t wanna hear or analyze or comprehend any of these shits.
I DON’T NEED IT, REALLY!I’m very much wishing I can break free.
Break away & forget about the rest of the world.
I don't wanna struggle in the deep tunnel any longer.
My rationale for not wanting it anymore is to avoid the constant pain it brings.
I can't put you above me and im afraid im doing this for nothing.
Where will all these lead to eventually?
Oh, I do hate feeling this way.
This nudging urge to take a step forward suddenly seems so stupid.
My heart tore into two.
Yes, literally.
I wish mister year 2007 would grant me a fresh new start.
