HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRED BUDDY :]
There's been a lot on my plate lately but when is there not?
I try to decipher every little thing that life throws at me, like, it would have some kind of hidden code that if I crack, my life is going to alter and become what I want it to be.
It's so frustrating, because I do it non-stop.
My brain is constantly thinking, and working.
And as soon as I think I've figured things out, it turns out I'm wrong.
I'm stuck on thinking that everything has a hidden meaning, and because my life isn't anything I wanted it to be, so if I figure out those hidden meaning, and crack all of the codes, I can be the person I want to be, with the life I want to have.
Those last two paragraphs basically just said the same thing, but seen differently,
and and and
I have the worst emotional problems, damnit,
and and and
I ruin things,
and and and
I'm scared of the labels "boyfriend" & "girlfriend"
and and and
I'm scared of hurt & hurting,
and and and,
I think way too hard,
and and and
fuck it, I just don't care anymore.
Today, Nigel told me that people were talking about the girl with " ... the forever black face."
Which is none other than me.
Obviously, I'm no bitch like you, going around smiling 24/7.
I bet she has spasms everyday.
Screw it, bitch. Have fun!
It's true some scents do trigger off memories.
I've finally found that scent of this particular person, and I went to purchase that item with this scent, which is actually a shower gel.
And I have yet to stop smelling it ever since I've started using it.
But I suppose it's useless to bring back those memories now.
Yet I still love the smell. Hah.
I'm such a useless bum.
Nah-da. Full-stop. End of story.
Went to Marina Square with reine and jasmine.
Finally got to meet up with jasmine!
We met up at bpp and took 960 to marina, there was this very self-centered malay guy siting next to jasmine with his music blasting away, like he was in his living room(?!!!)
Reached Marina and had lunch.
We were all VERY x 12345678910 hungry. HAHA!
After lunch, went shopping at diva, jasmine's paradise.
And my heels were killing me, seriously.
So I brought another pair of heels(but much much shorter) to relieve my atonishing pain.
Then we proceeded to Zara and spent more than an hour in there.
Shopping, women's forte.
Jasmine was trying on soooo many outfits and mostly were YELLOW in color! LOL!
In the end, she brought one of the yellow top/dress.
After Zara was Topshop, was just browsing through cause most of the collection was the old one.
Then headed home shortly after.
I don't need all the money in the world, I just need days like these and people like my besties by my side FOREVER!
I LOVE U:)
Very full jasmine.
Music&LyricsInspired.
I've been living with the shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with the cloud above my bed,
Trapped in the past i just cant seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case i ever need them again some day
All i wanna do is find a way back into love